People don’t realize how hard it is for people like me to do normal things.
And that sometimes, we don’t have the option of paying someone to do the things that we can’t.
So yesterday I finally was able to take some time to myself (no laundry or homework or writing or housework, yay!) and what did I do? I pampered myself! Yes, for the first time in a while I got to paint my own nails.
And it felt SO good, not just on the outside….because you all know how good it feels to have your nails done 😉 ….but it felt good on the inside too.
Most of the time, having Arthritis means giving up what you love. Hobbies, jobs, activities. For me, it’s meant giving up a career I loved, school, and whole lot of independence.
But recently, I feel like I’ve gotten a lot of that back. 🙂
I used to paint my nails every other week, but when I started to deteriorate, doing my nails even just once in a while, was a huge strain. I would be forced weigh the pros and cons each time. Knowing my hands would kill me and my back would be hunched for the rest of the day. I’d enjoy my nails and pay for it later with swollen joints and loads of pain. And some of the time, I’d be worth it. Just to feel human again.
But now, with my treatments working well and fresh from cortisone shots, I’m able to get through it without too many of the consequences. 😉
It’s still painful and difficult for me to grip the nail polish bottle, but I don’t care.
Even though my hands shake and I make a huge mess, to me, it’s about more than nail art.
It’s the accomplishment, the satisfaction of being able to do something I haven’t been able to do in a while.
To be able to do something for myself, without somebody’s help.
To just listen to music and dream while my shaking hands attempt to not mess up. 😉
I would like to stop and thank my friends and family for always helping me do the things
that I can’t. You’ll never know how hard it is to ask for your help and how grateful
I am for your gracious attitude. You never let me feel less than and I thank you for that.
BUT… it does feel good to be able to ask less often now! HaHa